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| I'm scared ; scared shit less that is.
Not only am I going into my senior year of high school -
I'm going back to the way it use to be.
Yes ; getting back in the swing of things cant be that bad -
but its is.
I spent seven months of my junior year with a guy I was in love with.
Now I'm without him ; he’s not there to help with things or to vent to.
He’s not even part of my life anymore.
Its hard and I realize its time to move on -
and I have been ; really I have but its not easy.
Its hard ; hard as hell to get him off my mind ;
hard as hell not to pick up my cell and dial his number when I just need someone to cry to.
And the saddest part is - he doesn't even miss me, I guarantee he doesn't.
I'm told to be optimistic with things, I'm trying.
I'm only 17 people ; I'm not ready for this.
I want my childhood back.
I wish i had a dad I really do.
Maybe then things with guys wouldn't be as hard...
But I guess when you loose someone you love [like when my dad died at the age of three]
you realize life isn't always rainbows and bunnies.
And you have to grow up faster than most and work for what you want.
So i guess senior year will bring a lot of new responsibilities to the table ;
like getting ready for college and stuff.
And figuring out the rest of my life plans.
Till next time...
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I cant even begin to tell my xanga loves how much I have changed since February.
Not that I have changed for the worse but for the best; for myself.
Guys are no longer important to me they cause wayy to much trouble.
I'm living the life of a single 17 year old and a senior in high school.
There is no bringing me down, not now; not after everything Ive been through.
I really thought that I had found the guy I wanted to be with for the rest of my forever, but I guess I was wrong. And I am honestly so very happy about that. I deserved better than him and I know that now. After 7 months of nothing but fights and makeup sex it just wasn't worth my tears or time anymore.
So there you have it. I am now no longer depending on guys to make me happy. I'm too good for a guy right now, way to happy and way to into life.
Till my next very important update. Witch I have no idea when that will be.
I love you all!
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Adam swore into the Army yesterday.
Hes an MP[Military Police]
So he may not be gone yet but gosh its still hard knowing that he will be gone for so long.
He says he may be gone for 6 months, wow thats crazy.
I'm not sure if I'm ready for that, he thinks I'll leave him but I would never do that.
The sad thing is....
I'm 16 not engaged or anything and I think I may be pregnant.
And with Adam going off to basic training here very soon, I don't know what to do.
This guy is the love of my life, he means everything in the world to me, and I have no clue what I would do without him but what if I am pregnant, what happens then?!?
If hes gone for 6 months through my pregnancy thats going to be really hard. Then if hes shipped of to Iraq or something.... I'm 16 I cant raise a child by myself. I know for a fact my Mom will throw me out of the house just for the simple fact that she can. And on top of that I would be pregnant with his child and he wouldn't be there with me to help me through any of it...
I wonder what the other Army Girlfriends do?!?
Ughhh
I don't know..
Any advice..?!?
I love you Adam Reid Zimmerman <33
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| Say What Kids! My life is amazing right now. No I'm no longer with Anthony but thats a long and very confusing story. I have an amazing boyfriend though. His name is Adam Reid Zimmerman. What a great guy he is. December 11 is our one month. I'm very excited about that. No lie, its crazy. It seems like we have only been dating for a couple of weeks not almost four. So life is going pretty well in the relationship part. But not in the family part. I wont go into deatil, just know its been really hard for me. Till later guys. Have a good Christmas. 
Love always, Megan ♥
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| I have an amazing boyfriend named Tony now. I'm super excited that were offically dating after talking for almost 2 months. He means the world to me. The only thing is he leaves Oct 29th for Boot Camp. && I'm going to miss him so much. Its really hard excepting the fact that he's going to be gone for 4 months, without any latenight phone calls or kisses, hugs, or anything. School starts back up the 27th, and i'm not really looking forward to it. Ughhh I wish I was done with school, I already have senoritas. :[[ Till next time guys. Love you all :]] | | |
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